The Sun Forever Sets

Our time was not now
It has long been behind us
But we just wanted to have a good time
With quick fixes that stole the show away from the moon
But we took them too far
We took them out to the desert
Only to become stranded there with them.

As the night unfolded
We went far enough not to know any better
And I pulled my neck as I kept turning the other cheek
To the painful words that poured out of their mouths
Nonstop.
I’ve heard too many secrets shouted out
I’ve seen to many fallen friends
To believe in the power of humanity.
But we just wanted to have a good time
It’s everyone’s dream to live forever afloat
On the stars of our own making.
So we pressed onward

Some sat about and laughed
Others laid themselves out to cry.
One stumbled to her knees while kissing on a candy rosary.
She mumbled a prayer
With mispronounced words and a mixed up rhythm
Tomorrow she won’t remember the scene she made
But will remember her failing fate
That can not be raised no matter how many remedies
She inflicts upon her tormented mind.

When I walked home
My feet couldn’t remember which way home felt like.
They took three steps to the left and five to the right.
It was half past two
And I hoped a stranger would pick me up
Because I couldn’t see what was ahead of me
Aimless parties has placed it clammy hand across my lashes
The courage that helped me walk away from the crowds
The one that has pushed me to always keep moving forward
Has some how now escaped me.

I found myself rested on a rock that looked over the park
That morning, at the start of the new day
Its pebbles broke off and got caught under my nails
And warmth flooded from my chin down to my thighs.
I hadn’t realized how tired I had become
Of playing pretend
I could hardly bare how
I’ve lost touch with the soil
Without realizing.
Every face was falsely stated
While every day was barely holding its ground
Against the everlasting night.

I lifted my face towards the sun
Hoping to burn my eyes out
But something I never expected came over me
The sun felt sweet staring back
Everything became unreal finally and it seemed as though nothing
Could have any consequences.

When the time came
Where I could no long avoid making my way home
I pried myself off the solid rock and headed north.
I remember something my grandfather had said
He told me that the pieces and where they fell
Didn’t really matter
Just as long as they did fall
Because if they hang at your fingertips and never drop
You’ll forever live with the fear
Of everything falling when you least expect it.

That night,
As the crowds once again pushed past me
I felt my eyes close for the hundredth time
But even with my eyes shut,
I could feel the bodies losing ground
While they clashed against each other.
They were losing life every moment that slid by

And I no I can’t be free
I leave only to return
I cry only to become even harder
I’m right here only to feel out there
And I die only to never come back as the same person.

But our time is not now
It has long been ahead of us
And we just want to have a good time
Without the empty vision of a fresh start
But we don’t take them far enough
We just leave them behind with every blurred weekend
Only to become left behind and forgotten within ourselves.